I'm attempting to discontinue welcoming the development of cancer in my lungs. yeah, i'm going cold turkey. but i haven't decided if i'm trying to quit for the right reasons. to put my family at ease or salvage my health. at this moment, it really doesn't matter though, because i'm fiending like a motherfucker and i am furious with everyone and anyone and even myself, for no good reason. i just want a cigarette.

im an angry person. constant anger and irritation is something i developed along time ago. and usually instead of trying to resolve the continuously increasing anger, i just light a cigarette. it's all kind of surfacing now....